“Everything the establishment says is wrong with you is actually what’s right with you.” – Garrett John LoPorto

You cannot go far without wanting to do the challenging thing without mistakes this time. You cannot improve without wanting to not make any mistakes. Even if you still made a lot of mistakes despite holding that belief or having that kind of intention.

Procrastination has been linked to perfectionism in many cases, when in fact perfectionism is more likely to lead to less procrastination. If you want everything to be really perfect, you will not be able to wait unnecessarily for too long without doing anything. You will not settle. And you will start before you’re ready, because you’re trying to make the external thing perfect, not how you feel about yourself or the status of your readiness. It’s not about making your mood or how you feel on the inside perfect. It’s about creating something in the external world or reality that is perfect. This is where all reward exists, if you were truly a perfectionistic artist or a perfectionistic creative individual. Especially if you’re a true bred writer. You cannot bypass that and expect to get any positive results in your life because of it. This is the definition of betrayal of one’s own self, to abandon your perfectionism and you’re perfectionistic tendencies in the name of progress or whatever. There is no progress outside of perfectionism. Life exists only in embracing your perfectionism to the fullest. There’s no escape. You cannot hide forever. You cannot isolate your perfectionism from the rest of yourself, and end up having anything else remaining afterwards. There will be nothing else left. This is who you are, not what you do. There’s nothing wrong with you, if you were really a perfectionist. You are only obsessing because you know you cannot let that seemingly unimportant detail be left behind without the end result being way less than it would’ve been if you haven’t decided to overlook that tiny detail. I cannot imagine that the entirety of the world that never created anything got it right, and we, the real deal creative people got it wrong, when we’re the ones who ended up creating every masterpiece there is every single time, not them. Who are you taking anti perfectionism advice from? Lawyers? Accountants? Federal Employees? Politicians? Why are you taking constructive criticism from people who haven’t ever constructed anything?! Have you read the notebooks of Leonardo DaVinci, and found that you both have nothing in common? Was he living in our modern society? Were you both living in the same world, same environment, and that’s why you both ended up with the same struggles, obsessions, tendencies, traits, and characteristics? Can you still blame it on the contaminated water, or social media? Did Leonardo have social media back then? Like, why do you insist on hating yourself and everything that has to do with your true essence and core self? Why is it sexy to embrace yourself only when it comes to the negative but despise it whenever it’s about something that leads to greatness in the end? Who told you that being obsessively perfectionistic is bad? And why did you listen to them? I am stunned when I find people who attack perfectionism, are doing so within the confines of a book they’ve written, that is not only a New York Times best selling book, or an international best-selling book, but is also a book that is perfect and flawless in every way imaginable. At least better than the divinely inspired Bible. The irony of this is jaw dropping. I understand that you need to take the leap of faith at some point, and just get it done, just getting it over with. I certainly don’t consider any of the Genius Human book series to be perfect in any sense. But at least I tried. I tried to make it as perfect as I ever could. And I am satisfied by the end result. I am proud of it, and I am not looking back. Everybody’s first book is shit. Everybody’s first book is embarrassing to say the least. Just make sure that your last one isn’t as bad as your first. I had a lot of principles that I wanted to get out into the world by any means necessary. It wasn’t about beauty. And still I couldn’t let it go without meeting some minimum standard of perfection. To say that I always think how did I write this, will be an understatement. This is a real life case where when I say to myself: I amaze myself, I’m not being sarcastic. What bothers me is that people who end up always attacking and demonizing perfectionism are always people who are infinitely better than me in every way possible, at least when it comes to intelligence and competence, and they have consistently managed to create perfect books and things, every single time, and I’m the only one calling them out on this issue, when I have nothing to show as proof that I managed to end up doing or creating anything better than they ever could, in terms of quality of content at least, despite being a full-blown perfectionist. I have no proof of my claims, aside from theory. My love for philosophical accuracy is what’s guiding me at this point. Many writers understand what I’m saying, but they never looked at it this way before. They know the truth, but they don’t know that they are holding contradicting beliefs. They know they are doing what doesn’t contradict with what I’m proposing here, but they still believe they’ll be better off without perfectionism altogether. It still makes no sense to me that people chose to embrace making mistakes and settling for just making any progress, instead of embracing who they are when it comes to their perfectionism. It’s because they don’t want to hold themselves back. Nevertheless, there’s nothing that will hold you back more than not wanting to improve and not wanting to get better or get better results over time.

You’re not a perfectionist. You’re just someone who wants to ace the test without even attending it.