What do we get for pursuing perfectionism to its fullest extent? What do we receive in return for caring about our perfectionistic urges?

Peace.

This is why we bother fulfilling those urges that fall under the category of making everything in our work perfect.

If you keep getting impulses and urges and you repress, suppress, fight, resist, or inhibit these impulses or urges, you will no longer get them as much in the future.

This is what it means to be depressed. Not just sadness, but lack of will or desire to do anything worthwhile, even though you know you’d derive immense pleasure from that activity or thing.

That desire when normally generated, it gets the form of an urge or impulse that needs to be fulfilled, and if that impulse or urge is not fulfilled, followed, or chased, the desire disappears altogether, along with the possibility, willingness, or ability to have any desire of the same thing, or anything else in the world again in the future. In other words, it crushes your motivation or interest in anything that brings you pleasure or any positive effect in your life.

Now not one thing is going to make you depressed beyond help. But if you keep ignoring your desires and fighting your impulses, and whenever you want something, you give up on getting, doing, or having it, you are on the pathway that ultimately leads to major depression. This is how anhedonia develops slowly. By not caring about your urges and impulses, and by never fulfilling, following, or listening to any of your impulses, urges, or desires, until you no longer give a damn anymore, about anything there is in the world. Indifference in this case is not wisdom, but lack of humanity. This is not you being in control of your mind. This is you no longer being alive anymore. This is not enlightenment or mindfulness. This is not expanded awareness or consciousness, this is brain failure, just like there is heart failure, liver failure, Renal Failure, …etc. In other words, your brain is no longer performing its natural or normal functions. This is not just the absence of unessential happiness, this is the lack of the ability to make your brain work and function, even at the minimal level. This is non-functioning. Everything will become a chore. A dreaded activity that you have to get through to avoid criticism by society for not doing stuff expected from normal human beings that have basic levels of feeling. They think you have no emotions. They don’t know that you don’t have the energy to exercise your brain and body and generate those emotions.

Listening to your impulses is not a radical recommendation by an eccentric individual like me. It is basic entry level advice to develop, maintain, grow, and increase your intelligence and creativity. It is the only way you’ll manage to awaken your inner true and authentic self.

This is not a call to abuse people unchecked. This is a call to stop abusing yourself.