Whenever you get ideas and start preventing yourself from writing them down or putting them in a piece of content, self-loathing is to be suspected as the major cause for this.

When you hate yourself, you would hate the idea of hearing yourself speak, even in written form, and not necessarily in audio or video form only.

Anything that comes out of your mouth, or your head, or your mind, will be considered to be a capital offense. A major crime against humanity. An abomination. Just shut the fuck up is the response you always get from yourself, even if you’ve never gotten such a response from hate comments or random people on the internet.

If you hate yourself, for whatever reason, the end stage or result would always be the same: nothing that you’d make or produce would not be hated. As long as what you’ve said is not a direct quoted statement from another person’s words, you’d hate it immediately, for no other reason than you being the source of that statement or those words. Even if the quality or level of greatness of what you’ve said is still epic in all those cases. Like Shakespeare level of beauty. You’d still hate it, just because you are the source of that creative piece of content. It came from you, and thus it should be hated. Unless you figure out a way to stop hating yourself, you can kiss being creative goodbye for good. It’s not gonna come back. You can’t create if you hate yourself. In any form. Not written, not audio, not video, not pictures, no nothing. The only reason we create stuff is because we think our thoughts are too good to be left undocumented, unrecorded, or without being stored, and preserved forever for everybody else to consume at will whenever they want for all time. We believe we’re too good to die. We believe we’re too good to not be noticed by the entire universe. We believe everything in us is epic in every way possible. So great. Even our thoughts and opinions about everything should be discussed and presented to the whole world to explore and consume forever. Everything about us is special, even our own thoughts. If you don’t love and worship yourself to that level, sorry, your mind is not gonna work. It’s not gonna even bother trying to think of something worth saying to or sharing with the whole world. Because you suck, so shut up already. Fuck Freud for making people think that ego is bad and evil. Or primitive. Fuck Freud for that. And everybody who followed in his fucking footsteps. You are infinitely important. You are more important than you could ever imagine or comprehend, because you’re brilliant. Not everybody is the same and you know it. Keep pleasing society and suppressing your own nature just to avoid bursting their bubble and hurting their feelings of inferiority and inadequacy. Keep downplaying how good you really are in the name of being politically correct. No one cares. And you will be nothing. They have tried to associate the mere feeling that you’re great or special in any way possible with pain or being evil, and they have parroted that in every fucking movie or story they ever made. The evil guys thought they were good, and the good guys thought they were nothing or nobodies. And good wins evil in the end. That in and of itself is an evil description of reality. That is evil propaganda. Indoctrination. Lack of coming up with reasons to justify hating the bad guys enough to make it okay to kill them at the end of the movie, without not just feeling bad about it, but all while making you derive pleasure and reward from killing bad guys in the end. You don’t have to reach peace. You have to kill them all. End stuff. As opposed to maintain stuff or make things better. This is how they appeal to the masses. This is how they get their attention and cheering. Let how awful society is sink in.

Never for a second doubt that everything around you in society has been perfectly engineered and designed to destroy intelligent people and successful people. Everything. Especially culture and moral codes. Add religion to this and the recipe for total disaster is complete. Religion itself is the embodiment of evil that makes people not resist its indoctrination through threats of violence and eternal damnation.

The point that I was trying to make earlier is, stop resisting every piece of advice you get that sounds good and you know deep down it works for reasons that only make sense in a deranged world like ours where religion is not considered by everyone to be pure evil. For reasons that come from ideologies, philosophies, and worldviews that consider every potentially good or beneficial piece of information to be bad or intrinsically harmful or evil because the bible says so, or because Karl Marx said so, or because Sigmund Freud said so, …etc. Many stuff that you were told that it is bad is actually not bad at all, and vice versa, including loving yourself, selfishness, self-care, prioritizing your own mental health and well-being, maintaining strict boundaries without making exceptions for any living thing whatsoever, eliminating the existence of anyone who brings negativity into your life even if occasionally, even if it is one or both of your parents, or your entire family, living alone, hating your mom and not wanting to see or talk to her forever again no matter what, having limitless ambition, loving money, wanting more money, wanting unprecedented success and fame, wanting to help other people just for the love of it, or just because this is your passion, without expecting anything in return from them in particular, not now, not later, not ever, valuing rest, sleeping until fully rested not until the alarm rings, sleeping for more than 8 hours if you want to, being unemployed, being an entrepreneur, sex between consenting adults, being a perfectionist and proud of it, without sacrificing productivity in the process, valuing happiness and well-being, even if at the expense of making more money, or any money at all, not giving a fuck about what society at large or anybody in particular thinks concerning whatever the fuck that you do or want to do with your life or time, or just not caring about anybody else’s opinion in general, not forcing yourself to do work that you hate just for the money, and be okay with staying that way all your life, and not just temporarily until you figure something out or until you get through these trying times, not hating your own thoughts, beliefs, and opinions or considering them to be things that don’t matter, not believing that you’re just another insignificant entity in a wide universe that should just seek pleasure, enjoy life, and make the most out of it while you still can because this is all there is to this life anyway, thinking that failure is an intrinsically and irredeemably bad thing that provides you with nothing positive at all no matter your perspective, unless you’re a fan of delusional thinking and placebo effect, and believe in the law of attraction or the power of prayer and positive thinking, …etc. And the list could go on forever. Countless stuff that is demonized by society and almost all cultures in this world, without there being anything wrong in any of them, while in most cases, they are entirely good in nature already, or they are purely positive things.

Many times the answer to becoming more creative isn’t to get yourself to write more, but to get yourself to hate yourself less.

If it takes less than 2 minutes, do it right away.

If you’re not supposed to do it at all, it will drain you if you keep chasing stuff like this, it is totally unimportant or not a priority, it is useless, it’s a total waste of time, don’t do it, even if it takes less than 2 minutes.

If it’s a good idea and it needs to be done, and it takes less than two minutes (by a rough estimation, that is, about two minutes, give or take), then by all means, jump on it right away. Do it now. Immediately. Go for it. Attack it right away.

If it takes longer than two minutes, and you still want to do it, you either start doing it right away, or write it on a to-do list, to do it any time later on as you see fit, or schedule it in your calendar.

Which means, you don’t sit down and ask yourself what should I do today, and then start filling your to-do lists and calendars with sound suggestions, and then you start your day by addressing those tasks written.

You sit down, and ask yourself: what do I want to do now. According to the answer that comes or shows up to you, you will act. If it takes less than two minutes, you’ll address it or try to finish it right away. If it takes more than two minutes, you will then have to choose between either doing it right away, or writing it down in one of your to-do lists, so that you can do it any time later on as you see fit, as it suits you, or whenever you feel like it (sorry, Mel Robbins), or in one of your calendars to only do it at a specific time your judgement has deemed to be a good idea to take care of that matter during which.

Again, if you are a primitive person, all of the above would seem like complicating things and would feel like too much. You have to improve yourself as a human being. You have to become smarter. You need to become more ambitious. You must become better. There’s no bypassing that. Stop wanting everybody else to accept you more by being less of who you really are, by being less intelligent than you actually are or need to be. Don’t water yourself down to please other people or make them love or accept you more. Don’t dumb yourself down to fit in.

Not every task should be put in a to-do list. Not everything needs to be scheduled. You are allowed to do stuff right away without telling yourself this is what I am going to do now through writing down the task in some form of to-do list, planning notes, or a calendar. You can do stuff directly, without writing them down first or at all. You are your own leader. Do what you want, the way you want to.

Not everything you tell yourself through urges or impulses is worth listening to. It is up to you to decide whether or not an impulse or an urge is a good idea to follow at the moment.

Listen to yourself, but don’t be a slave to yourself. Don’t chase whatever yourself tells you, even the stuff that you highly disagree with.

You do stuff habitually, directly, or because it’s planned in a written form somewhere like a to-do list, calendar, or planning notes.

Please, I urge you not to end up doing stuff habitually only, or because it’s been written or planned only. You can do stuff directly too. Don’t deprive yourself from that luxury or option. It is what true freedom really means. To-do lists and calendars are just there to help you finish things faster, not restrict you from doing anything you want whenever you want. Not to restrict you from doing anything unless it’s written in either of them first. They are productivity tools, not productivity gulags.

Remember: The ultimate goal is to be free to run around all day. Free to do it all my way.