Be careful not to end up being in full control of yourself to the extent that you no longer have anything left to control and repress in the first place. Pursuing your impulses is always going to leave you feeling bad afterwards. This is where you need to step in, in order to actually start doing what you really want, without feeling you’re being dragged left and right in opposing directions, rendering you totally helpless and unable to make a single move.

Having too much impulses to suppress is not why you’re suffering. It’s not having anything to suppress in the first place. It’s the emptiness that is killing you. Not being too impulsive.

I understand that you need not do anything dangerous, harmful, or that you’d regret later on. That is not what I’m trying to talk you out of being opposed to here. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to not get into trouble. In fact, too much trouble might interfere with how much you have a chance to exercise your impulsive behavior. If you’re too restricted due to outside forces, whether they are justified or not, you simply will have no chance to do whatever comes to mind at will. The problem is that whenever you think of impulsive behavior, you tend to drift toward that which entails the absence of any capacity for rational thinking involved. You tend to think of recklessness, self-sabotaging behavior, and breaking rules just for the love of it. The idea that you can have maximum impulsivity without sacrificing reason is foreign to you. You not only can’t seem to believe it, you don’t want to. And this is why you never hesitate to suppress your impulsivity to death, until it no longer has the capacity to show up. Until it no longer exists. Until it no longer remains possible to exist. And you correlate that with maturity and wisdom, especially if you’re fond of new age spirituality and its version of suppressive meditation that is contingent upon the regressive idea that you are not your thoughts, and all thoughts are useless and just background noise trying so hard to interfere with your capacity for real-time living or presence. The result is an apathetic idle lifeless culture or civilization of self-love and acceptance that thinks we’re all better off doing less, because our ancestors must have called us human beings for a reason, not because it means life-form, but because it means that we are supposed to just sit there and do nothing all day long, because we have everything there is to have, explore, or find within us, because we’re not human doing, we’re human being. I don’t want to delve into the possibility that this might be all part of an attempt to bring western civilization to the ground in order to pave the way for a communist, religious, or new world order global takeover, but it’s not impossible. I can’t imagine an idea that weakens an individual, much less an entire civilization, than telling them they are enough from the start without doing anything. Just be yourself, and you’ll end up being the next Beyoncé or something. All the answers are within you. Just download my program into your head and you’ll find all the answers I’m talking about coming from within now, not from outside. This is what happens when you replace the old religion with a new one. You get the same results, only in new clothing this time. Because in both cases, getting access to the rational and reasonable parts of your mind is always demonic and heartless. You just have to feel the vibe, and know it’s true without thinking too much. Hell, they even told you that your thoughts are the problem, and you need to get rid of them in order to achieve full enlightenment and total self-actualization. Thoughts are now the enemy. And intelligence is no longer our north star. It’s now an obstacle. It’s the last thing you need to care about. If anything, it’s only going to make you think! The horror. As a result, we are witnessing an unprecedented increase in anxiety, depression, meaninglessness, hopelessness, narcissism, and incompetence, like never before. Yeah, they’re totally unrelated. Wait, that’s a thought! Dismiss it right away. Don’t ruin the vibe. I’m now flying like a butterfly. Let me just be. I don’t want to waste my life worrying. Until the enemy arrives at the gates.

You get impulses every now and then. But your problem isn’t in the content or nature of the impulses themselves. It’s in the very existence of impulses. To you, impulses are the enemy. You have been conditioned throughout the years that being impulsive is synonymous with being criminal or evil. You have been punished over and over again by people who said they love you, for being too impulsive, with disregard to what impulses you’ve been getting. Being impulsive meant you had no control over yourself. After all, you need to stop doing irresponsible stuff after some point in order to grow up. These are not necessarily the same people who told you that you need to achieve greater levels of self-acceptance through dropping, dismissing, suppressing, not dwelling upon, not pursuing, not validating, or not continuing every thought that you get or that comes up during the meditation session, because these thoughts are not you. And since they don’t belong to the same tribe, you thought (gasp) that one of them knew any better and really wanted what’s best for you. So you suppressed the very act of being impulsive itself, with disregard to whether or not the nature or content of those impulses is in itself bad, harmful, evil, or worthy of suppression. You did because they told you to do so. And in their footsteps you followed, because these lifeless people seemed to look put together, happy, and in full control of themselves and their behavior. At least you thought so.

If your impulses are ruining your life, know that it’s not the fault of being impulsive. You need to get better impulses. You can’t however, do so without fulfilling the currently existing impulses first as is, or else they’ll keep jumping around and making a fuss, saying look at me, even if the newer impulses you’re currently pursuing or trying to replace them with are infinitely better in every way imaginable.

You need to fulfill every currently existing impulse you have to the fullest first, and then you can start worrying about doing what you really want, assuming of course, you have any energy left at this point.

Wait for full alignment, before you make your next move. You will then start wondering why other people still get tired. There’s no self outside of this.

“Everything the establishment says is wrong with you is actually what’s right with you.” – Garrett John LoPorto

You cannot go far without wanting to do the challenging thing without mistakes this time. You cannot improve without wanting to not make any mistakes. Even if you still made a lot of mistakes despite holding that belief or having that kind of intention.

Procrastination has been linked to perfectionism in many cases, when in fact perfectionism is more likely to lead to less procrastination. If you want everything to be really perfect, you will not be able to wait unnecessarily for too long without doing anything. You will not settle. And you will start before you’re ready, because you’re trying to make the external thing perfect, not how you feel about yourself or the status of your readiness. It’s not about making your mood or how you feel on the inside perfect. It’s about creating something in the external world or reality that is perfect. This is where all reward exists, if you were truly a perfectionistic artist or a perfectionistic creative individual. Especially if you’re a true bred writer. You cannot bypass that and expect to get any positive results in your life because of it. This is the definition of betrayal of one’s own self, to abandon your perfectionism and you’re perfectionistic tendencies in the name of progress or whatever. There is no progress outside of perfectionism. Life exists only in embracing your perfectionism to the fullest. There’s no escape. You cannot hide forever. You cannot isolate your perfectionism from the rest of yourself, and end up having anything else remaining afterwards. There will be nothing else left. This is who you are, not what you do. There’s nothing wrong with you, if you were really a perfectionist. You are only obsessing because you know you cannot let that seemingly unimportant detail be left behind without the end result being way less than it would’ve been if you haven’t decided to overlook that tiny detail. I cannot imagine that the entirety of the world that never created anything got it right, and we, the real deal creative people got it wrong, when we’re the ones who ended up creating every masterpiece there is every single time, not them. Who are you taking anti perfectionism advice from? Lawyers? Accountants? Federal Employees? Politicians? Why are you taking constructive criticism from people who haven’t ever constructed anything?! Have you read the notebooks of Leonardo DaVinci, and found that you both have nothing in common? Was he living in our modern society? Were you both living in the same world, same environment, and that’s why you both ended up with the same struggles, obsessions, tendencies, traits, and characteristics? Can you still blame it on the contaminated water, or social media? Did Leonardo have social media back then? Like, why do you insist on hating yourself and everything that has to do with your true essence and core self? Why is it sexy to embrace yourself only when it comes to the negative but despise it whenever it’s about something that leads to greatness in the end? Who told you that being obsessively perfectionistic is bad? And why did you listen to them? I am stunned when I find people who attack perfectionism, are doing so within the confines of a book they’ve written, that is not only a New York Times best selling book, or an international best-selling book, but is also a book that is perfect and flawless in every way imaginable. At least better than the divinely inspired Bible. The irony of this is jaw dropping. I understand that you need to take the leap of faith at some point, and just get it done, just getting it over with. I certainly don’t consider any of the Genius Human book series to be perfect in any sense. But at least I tried. I tried to make it as perfect as I ever could. And I am satisfied by the end result. I am proud of it, and I am not looking back. Everybody’s first book is shit. Everybody’s first book is embarrassing to say the least. Just make sure that your last one isn’t as bad as your first. I had a lot of principles that I wanted to get out into the world by any means necessary. It wasn’t about beauty. And still I couldn’t let it go without meeting some minimum standard of perfection. To say that I always think how did I write this, will be an understatement. This is a real life case where when I say to myself: I amaze myself, I’m not being sarcastic. What bothers me is that people who end up always attacking and demonizing perfectionism are always people who are infinitely better than me in every way possible, at least when it comes to intelligence and competence, and they have consistently managed to create perfect books and things, every single time, and I’m the only one calling them out on this issue, when I have nothing to show as proof that I managed to end up doing or creating anything better than they ever could, in terms of quality of content at least, despite being a full-blown perfectionist. I have no proof of my claims, aside from theory. My love for philosophical accuracy is what’s guiding me at this point. Many writers understand what I’m saying, but they never looked at it this way before. They know the truth, but they don’t know that they are holding contradicting beliefs. They know they are doing what doesn’t contradict with what I’m proposing here, but they still believe they’ll be better off without perfectionism altogether. It still makes no sense to me that people chose to embrace making mistakes and settling for just making any progress, instead of embracing who they are when it comes to their perfectionism. It’s because they don’t want to hold themselves back. Nevertheless, there’s nothing that will hold you back more than not wanting to improve and not wanting to get better or get better results over time.

You’re not a perfectionist. You’re just someone who wants to ace the test without even attending it.

In other words, you have a phobia of perfection.

Your fear of making videos, appearing in your videos, or speaking on video has nothing to do with you not having the talent to speak on camera. It’s not because you’re an introvert. It’s not because you were not made for speaking on camera or publicly. It’s not because you are not naturally good at speaking on camera or publicly. Speaking in front of the camera is the single most thing that requires no special talent aside from that which is required in real life to speak in front of other people in real time and deliver a speech or something. You’re not afraid of the object (the camera) itself, or seeing yourself on the screen while you speak. You take pictures of yourself all the time. You’re afraid of saying what you think in front of a large number of people. And that is understandable. However, stuttering on camera or while speaking publicly is for other reasons that have nothing to do with any of that which is mentioned above. It’s because you are afraid of making mistakes. So you’d rather not speak at all in the first place. You’re afraid of judgment and criticism of you by other people. But that’s not the whole story. It is your phobia of perfectionism that is holding you back the most. You are afraid of not trying to make mistakes, that is, you don’t want to do something without making any mistakes while doing it. The horror. Nobody told you to judge yourself harshly for every single mistake you ever made. Nobody. Yet, you think that the idea of attempting to do anything with the intention of getting it right from the start, from the first attempt, without any mistakes whatsoever, seems like an abomination to you. I’m trying to decouple the intention from the actual results here. You might end up making a ton of mistakes in the end, but you intended to not make any of them from the start. You intended to make it all free from any mistakes at all from the first time you did this thing. In other words, you intended to not miss again this time. Even if you still missed this time as well, there’s no contradiction here. You still went with the intention of getting it right from the start, and from the first attempt. Since you have a phobia of such idea, you end up sabotaging yourself along the way every single time, just to prove to the world that perfection doesn’t exist and thus you don’t deserve to be punished from now on for messing up. You are afraid of not making mistakes more than you’re afraid of making mistakes. If that is not a form of self-loathing and self-sabotage, I don’t know what is. I cannot imagine someone creating something great with the intention of making something horrible in terms of quality. They always feel guilty afterwards because they know they could’ve made it better. No one achieves greatness by aiming for mediocrity or low quality. Nothing is ever enough, because when they lie down afterwards, ideas start to pour in showing them how could what they created have been far better. Ideas that scream in their heads: well, next time, try not to suck! But perfectionism is bad, and perfection doesn’t exist, right? So you keep sinking endlessly in terms of the quality of what you create every single time, while celebrating the lack of conscience you’ve successfully developed through happily embracing whatever indoctrination they threw at you to tell you how amazing and super duper special you are and always have been without even trying. You’re the best, even if you’re the worst. No wonder why you feel everything is meaningless and pointless. The emptiness inside of you just keeps growing all the time. And they conditioned you to call it happiness from within. There’s no reason for you to improve or get better at anything, because you’re super awesome from the start. Also college is bad, and who needs education. Intelligence is now under siege. Everybody is just epic the way they already are, they don’t fix or improve themselves, they just discover and accept themselves. You don’t change yourself, you just dump your partner, and find another one. It’s the world’s fault, always, even when it’s not. And it’s never your fault, no matter what you do. The world needs to adapt to you, not the other way around.

You have no problem with stuttering, stumbling, and making a ton of mistakes while speaking on camera, because you know you’ll edit everything out later on before posting the video. Why would you ever learn how to speak nonstop like you’re live on stage speaking publicly with no chance of editing anything out in real time, in real life. Why would you learn to speak without pausing too long to think about what to say next? Where’s your self-acceptance now when you need it? Why are you questioning every thought you get before saying it publicly? Why would you learn to think while you speak at the same time, and not pause too much, and still manage to say full sentences devoid of any unforgivable atrocities or mistakes?

Do not betray your most authentic self. Including your tendency to make everything perfect.

All those who procrastinated on what they were passionate about for years, ended up never doing what they procrastinated doing at all for the rest of their lives. I know of no single person that put off doing something they were passionate about for years who managed to finally start doing those things years later successfully. No one. In fact, they ended up being advocates for why it’s a waste of time to even try to do or become those things. They find pleasure talking people out of similar dreams all the time, like they’re so noble and virtuous and trying to make the world a better place by stopping other people from ruining their lives by being or doing something that is too ambitious. They take pride in holding other people back, and they call this being rational and realistic. They discourage people from pursuing their dreams, goals, aspirations, desires, ambition, passion, and the betterment of their own lives for a living, and they never feel guilty about it. They think they’re doing the right thing. It’s like a law of nature. You either do it, or end up pushing yourself and other people away from doing it, because you must think you were right about the disastrous decision of giving up on your dreams for the rest of your life, or else you’d regret it for eternity. You’d rather betray your most authentic self, than go through regret, because for some reason you prefer the absence of taking action to putting in the work. You don’t want to be wise. You want to just sound wise. You are afraid of change not because you don’t want to lose your authentic self, but because you have a phobia of getting better. You hate to improve, because you think you’re perfect the way that you are from the start. There’s a difference between having a mother that says meh toward whatever achievement you make, no matter how great it is, which makes you think you’re not enough as a human being no matter what you do, and thinking that you are perfect in every way imaginable from the start without even trying, because this kind of parenting is criminal. She is wrong for having denied you all encouraging emotions. Including the emotion of being impressed by how amazing you are, even if you really weren’t that special. Still, that doesn’t make you perfect the way you are from the start without even trying. I can’t grant you that, no matter how profound the trauma of the withholding of emotions that you’ve been through is and will always be. I’m not minimizing your trauma, and I’m not victim blaming you. I’m not invalidating your feelings. I’m not trying to tell you to snap out of it, or that it’s not that big of a deal. I’m not telling you that you are wrong to be or feel hurt this way or to that extent. I will never do any of that. Ever. Narcissistic abuse is arguably the single most horrible and severest form of torture and abuse a human being could ever go through, no matter what. What I’m having trouble with is the issue of wanting to heal and find their true self, while simultaneously demonizing an essential part of their nature and who they are, which is their perfectionism. They think that they should kill any perfectionism that resides within their souls in order to unlock their full potential and maximize their progress, when their desire to do so only serves as a tool to maximize their self-loathing and imposter syndrome, without positively impacting their success, productivity, creativity, progress, or potential in any way, shape, or form I can think of. They should embrace their true self and nature, except when it comes to their perfectionism or perfectionistic tendencies. I wonder where you guys get your reward from. Will you ever reach true fulfillment at some point, or are you just going to settle for talking about fulfillment only instead for the entirety of your lives without ever bothering to try to taste it for yourself? Have you ever tried to pursue being a full-blown perfectionist to the fullest and see where does that lead you? Have you ever felt a proclivity toward correcting mistakes indefinitely with no end in sight just for the love of it, because you are not doing any effort to bypass or suppress the perpetual desire of wanting everything to be divinely perfect? Did you focus more on the annihilation of mistakes instead of improving the quality of your content, writing, work, or whatever that which you’re creating? Or you just have a phobia of trying to do anything well or perfectly, because of your trauma, or because your trauma says so?

Suppressing your perfectionistic tendencies won’t do you any good. It will just force you to always have no option but to settle for profound mediocrity.

You want to be in full control, without being lifeless.

You can feel dragged all the time having no choice but to follow whatever urge you’ve got that builds up inside of you as you go through your day-to-day life, every step of the way.

You have a plan that is being formed in your head as we speak, concerning how you’d like to approach fulfilling every single urge that popped up in your head. But for some reason, you cannot seem to get the inner child to follow through with it, not because you’re too lazy, tired, or you don’t value your time and have no problem wasting hours of it in vain, but because you insist upon chasing each impulse you get in a way that makes it impossible to get things done, let alone be able to move between different choices. You keep chasing impulses, even if this decreases your chances of ever fulfilling any of them. While dismissing that problem by thinking that this is totally normal because it’s all about the journey might sound sexy and all, you still know that you cannot move. Whatever you suggest gets blocked and substituted with another suggestion that does not necessarily address the issue at hand or fulfill the impulses that appeared recently better than their older alternative. You just keep getting sucked in different or opposite directions, each presents itself as the better solution, competing with each other like political candidates from the same party trying to win the primary elections. Some options might definitely be better than others, but the inner conflict is taking place irrespective of how competent each candidate is. You just keep going back and forth between different options or opposing choices as if the point is to keep hesitating, not enjoying fulfilling each and every impulse that shows up. And you hear some conservative in the back saying well fulfilling impulses is evil in and of itself, and the purpose of life is to suppress whatever urges or impulses you get on the regular until you no longer get any impulses. All this is a distraction.

What I’m proposing here is to pick one useless impulse or urge that you totally don’t care about fulfilling, and totally suppress yourself from doing it or doing what fulfills it. This exercise is aimed at reminding the rest of your mind that you have the ability to move yourself away from doing what you want without feeling a thing, like you’re a psychopath or something, in order for you to eliminate the urge to chase urges because they exist, in order to eliminate them, or else you’d be stuck forever with a repressed urge that nothing seems to be able to make it go away, and in order to not have no choice but to follow or fulfill urges or impulses that came to existence by mistake, or those which you totally don’t want at all in the first place, or don’t want to fulfill them in a certain order.

You want to fulfill each and every impulse and urge that you get. You don’t want to lose your free will in order to do so.

“Everything the establishment says is wrong with you is actually what’s right with you.” – Garrett John LoPorto

Don’t limit your options. Don’t get bogged down on what is the best choice to make. Different content formats (audio, video, or the written word, whether short or long form), are options to increase what’s available for you to choose from to make you able to find the right way to express yourself that suits the moment, not some extra sets of ball and chains.

Don’t let analysis paralysis be something that you’re proud that you have. There’s nothing about the inability to decide or excessive hesitation concerning stuff that doesn’t make much of a difference that makes you special. It doesn’t mean you’re smarter. It won’t make you or your life better. And it certainly won’t make your life easier in any way I can imagine.

There’s no such thing as too many options to choose from. There’s only too much unnecessary indecisiveness. There’s fear of failure. There’s too much speculation. There’s living life in your head, instead of actually experiencing it in real time.

You are getting more reward from having too many options sitting around, than from keeping things moving. You need some serious rewiring to do in your spare time.

You’re focusing on the wrong problem, all because you’re afraid of addiction. You want to look good in front of others. You don’t want to look like you’re crazy. Like you’re hungry for reward, achievement, or dopamine all the time. Because society has managed to convince you that intelligence is irrelevant, and only being a good person matters, even though you can’t be a good person without being smarter. You just can’t, and you’ll always end up being a parasite of some sort, because nothing that intelligent people value will ever make any sense to you. You can’t bypass intelligence. No amount of money will ever make it okay to be stupid.

Society has managed to make you associate valuing intelligence and desiring to be and stay intelligent with pain. Because it means you’ll have boundaries, you’ll value your time, mood, and well-being more, and you will stop tolerating annoying people altogether. Society wants you to be too kind and gentle to fight back, so that they can easily manipulate you, and make you harmless, and always end up doing what they want, no matter what you do.

This is why they hate you more when they find out you’re a bookworm, and they seem to love you more and find you relatable if you waste six hours every day on TikTok.

There’s nothing wrong with being or wanting to be more intelligent. Just make sure no one is around when you do it.

It is possible for most people to be happy.

Make sure you don’t end up unable to become happy no matter what you do. There’s no turning back from this.

Don’t be naive. Never let your guard down.

We’re surrounded by ugliness everywhere. Don’t make your writing further contribute to the problem.

Focus on delivering the message in a way that makes the probability of misunderstanding it by an intelligent enough with good intentions individual as low as possible. Many people focus on making their writing look good or appear less boring, at the expense of delivering the meaning as accurately as possible. Many people ignore how sustained the focus of their readers will be after expressing something a certain way. No one keeps in mind whether or not the focus of their reader will remain the same after throwing something useless within their sentence. Everybody focuses on being themselves and accepting themselves the way they are while writing. They focus on expressing themselves to the fullest, loving themselves unconditionally, and saying what they want the way that they want. They are just here to vent and feel better. They are here to document their journey. These are good principles in and of themselves, but they are supposed to be of concern when it comes to your private life and how you intend to live it. I’m sorry, but as authentic and relatable as this might make you become or look like, this isn’t what’s going to distinguish you as a world renowned writer. If I read your work and fail to get anything new out of it, you failed in your job as a writer. I understood nothing, I strayed away a lot while reading it, and felt bored, trapped, and stuck countless times along the way, and ended up with nothing at the end of the process. This means your writing sucks. It’s always the writer’s fault, unless proved otherwise. You told me a ton of useless stories and talked about a lot of stuff that added nothing to the core message that you wanted to deliver, and made me hate the idea of reading books or articles as a medium or format for communication in and of itself, regardless of who’s the individual who has written them. You managed to make me prefer consuming information through video to the written word. I know that beauty matters when it comes to writing. But are you really making what you’re writing more beautiful, or are you just trying to manufacture beauty in order to cover for or make up for the lack of substance and meaning in what you’re talking about? I’m not trying to tell you to be brief. I’m not trying to tell you to speak less, silence is golden, or do not speak unless spoken to. I want you to write way more than you currently do in terms of quantity, even if at the expense of quality, so long as the quality does not fall too much below a certain minimal acceptable level. Just please, make sure you don’t waste our time. Make it worth our while. Make us understand what you’re talking about. Make us come up with something new from what you are saying. Please, say something new every step of the way, instead of creating something that looks good but is devoid of any meaning, benefit, or value. Make it impossible to summarize what you have said in a few bullet points without leaving more than ninety percent of what you’ve said behind.

Everybody is focused on looking smart to the outside observer, without actually being smart.

You think being smarter is about being faster on the outside.

It’s more about being faster on the inside.

I can feel you.

There’s nothing going on inside of you. Just a feeling. A reflection of the outside world. On the inside, it’s empty. Nothing is there for me to feel.

If you keep focusing on getting things done faster only, it will always feel like you’re dragging yourself behind and pushing yourself to achieve external results. While working on a lot of complex or difficult tasks might activate and stimulate you significantly, it will always feel like it’s something against your nature that you’re forcing yourself to do or reach all the time against your will or whether you feel like it or not, because the default or normal of your mind is inactive, idle, or not working at all.

This isn’t about worrying all the time or inducing a state of anxiety. This is about operating at full speed all the time, even if there’s nothing that necessitates or requires that to take place at the moment that you’re engaged in doing in the external world or outside your mind or body, unless you seriously need to rest and can’t keep being like that any longer. This is about being fast, with disregard to what you’re doing.

You try to look faster by making things happen quicker in the outside world. You don’t care about thinking or being faster on the inside, even when you’re doing nothing.

You keep focusing on getting things done, finishing more tasks, with the minimum amount of energy, in order to remain efficient.

Real speed and intelligence isn’t about operating quickly and doing things quickly or in lesser time. It’s about being faster in terms of what takes place inside your mind, even if the task at hand does not demand such speed.

You need to be faster, not just get things done quicker. This is the other side of intelligence that no one talks about. Everybody is focused on what you can do externally or in the outside world.

Remember when you say I’m having a slow day today? Try to reverse that and have a fast day today. Notice the difference. If it were about rushing things and being in a hurry, then it’s just external speed, which matters, but you cannot consider yourself fast in terms of intelligence, if the only things happening faster exist outside your mind or body. There should be a significant increase in how fast you process things and think for example, with disregard to what’s going on in the outside world.

“As fast as you can. As fast as I can? As fast as you can!” – The Incredibles

You think being smarter is about being faster on the outside.

It’s more about being faster on the inside.

I can feel you.

There’s nothing going on inside of you. Just a feeling. A reflection of the outside world. On the inside, it’s empty. Nothing is there for me to feel.

You try to look faster by making things happen quicker in the outside world, and that’s why you only get things done, without feeling any difference in terms of your ability. It’s all labor, and it never ends. Brushing your teeth is as hard as studying physics. Everything is just spending energy, because nothing exists except in the outside world. Nothing happens except in your external world. You just get rewarded. You are just getting happier. Nothing special takes place inside your mind no matter what you do, because you’re focusing on the external results you’re doing everything with the least amount of concentration possible, in order to remain efficient. And in exchange for this, you give up being alive.

You will never experience what it really means to be smarter without attempting to be faster on the inside, in terms of processing speed for example, with disregard to the complexity of the activity that you’re currently engaged in doing at the moment. You can’t, and you will never understand what it tastes like to be intelligent. No amount of reward could bypass that, even though you cannot function without ample excessive amount of reward compared to the average.