All your productivity issues are a natural result of your phobia of exhaustion.

The people who criticize perfectionism want you to focus on progress instead of focusing on getting everything perfect. It’s about not even getting started because it has to be perfect or else you wouldn’t accept whatever you end up with or consider it an achievement of acceptable level.

I want you to hold that framework in your head for a second. This concept could help you understand why your phobia of fatigue is having a negative impact on your productivity and progress just as your reluctance to work on something unless you’re dead sure that you’re going to get it perfect potentially could. Let’s imagine you can easily get tired, even with minimal amount of work. You’ve literally done nothing, and you still feel tired. And because of that, you decided to not try to do anything that could make the situation worse. Anything that could potentially get you even more tired, has to be avoided in this case, or else, God forbid, you’d end up even more tired, like totally exhausted or something. I want you to explain to me why that is a bad thing. You can’t. Because you can’t do that without telling me something along the way that revolves around the fact that you wouldn’t be able to do anything if you’re exhausted. And in order to avoid getting there, you have to prevent yourself from doing almost everything that you also wouldn’t attempt doing in case you were really tired. As much as that might make sense to you, it doesn’t make sense to me.

The idea that you think perfectionism can hold you back from maximum productivity or progress but your irrational reluctance to get tired couldn’t affect your performance, productivity, or progress is next level delusion to say the least. Let’s assume you avoid anything that is fundamental to solving your problems and making progress because of your reluctance to get tired. That somehow has no effect whatsoever on your progress, but avoiding working on anything because of wanting to get it perfect, but since you’re sure you can’t get it perfect now because of a bunch of made up reasons is procrastination until proven otherwise. I want you to understand the cognitive dissonance here. It is outrageous to say the least. It is a case of maximum hypocrisy based upon a desire to turn what people want to hear against them, while gathering testimonials from those who weren’t negatively affected. Everybody is trying to convince you that you should build and organize your whole life around avoidance of burnout and excessive workloads. With disregard to where that might eventually lead to. As long as you’re making sales, your theory is solid. All this is taking place despite the fact that perfectionism or perfection seeking behavior can only lead to a focus on doing something better in terms of quality, which would eventually lead to a massive increase in the quantity of the desired outcome, that is of maximum quality, which would inevitably impact whatever progress you want or care about positively. Perfectionism doesn’t work in isolation. It’s not that every tiny step should be the best it could ever be, but it’s a general process that leads to an increase in ambition enough to make the desired outcome always better than it could ever be without having that kind of unrealistically high standard. It should be obvious to you now that in both cases, that of perfectionism, and that of lack of fear of getting tired, you will end up working more, both harder and smarter, in order to get better results, which translates to making more progress.

Let’s think about that for a moment. If you’re avoiding to do the work necessary for getting a certain desired outcome, you will definitely make less progress. This is true, whether the reason for this is attempting to avoid fatigue, or to avoid failure to attain a certain perfect standard.

When you’re afraid of fatigue, you will definitely hold yourself back from utilizing your full potential or capabilities. You’d definitely not go all in. That certainly would not maximize your performance, productivity, or progress.

Don’t try to win the fight. They have nothing to lose. Focus on not ending up wasting your life because of trying to make them stop. Leave, and never come back. Never look back.

No one would ever dare to criticize or think of criticizing you because of something that is really good about you with the intention of making you hate yourself because of it unless they can never be at the receiving end of such criticism, no matter how hard they try. Unless you can never find anything good about them that you can attack. Unless they can never get any better than the current level of competence they currently are stuck with, if they have any. They must have nothing to lose in order to have no problem with attacking you in order to make you hate yourself because you’re not as globally bad as they are at everything there is. They are attacking the good stuff about you before the bad, for a reason. If you managed to hate being good at anything, you’ll end up being like them. And since you’ll always be better than them, they’ll always find something to attack about you that they can never be attacked back because of. Your helplessness in the face of such attacks stems from you believing that since you couldn’t attack them back, even potentially or theoretically, that this means that you are weak, either mentally or physically. You only fail to attack them back because there’s nothing good about them at all in the first place that you can attempt to attack.

Remember, you are enough, and even if perfect doesn’t exist, you are perfect compared to your abusers. At least you have something that they find worthy of attacking, and you cannot simply find something about them of that nature that you can attack back.

There isn’t a place that is lower than where they currently are at that you can send them to through any type or amount of words or actions that you can ever say or do, so don’t bother. Don’t waste your breath. Block. Ghost. Go no contact with every single one of your abusers, no matter who they are.