Embracing your creativity triggers your processing powers to the maximum, until you start being hopeless and nihilistic for a couple of days, and then when the processing is over, and your frontal lobes are released again back online, the beauty begins. 

Notice then the huge smile on your face. 

Nothing else can ever bring a bigger and more genuine smile on your face.

Nothing, nothing, compares to that moment. When it all makes sense, and it all suddenly becomes so worth it. 

All the philosophical nonsense you engaged in before that in your head, doesn’t count. Treat it like REM sleep. It is useless, but is essential for the process of processing everything.