You are intelligent, and creative. And that’s why you’re failing in life.

I understand that you cannot succeed without intelligence. But that does not necessarily mean that higher intelligence guarantees success.

You are not failing in life despite being intelligent and creative, you are failing in life because you are highly intelligent and creative.

Because you are intelligent and creative, you know you are important.

And because you are important, you refuse to do what is necessary to fix your life, because it might be boring or not for you. You are too intelligent and creative to waste your time, life, or extraordinary potential doing those things. Those things that are necessary, and must be done, in order for you to fix your life, get your life together, save yourself, escape the unlivable circumstances, conditions, or environment you’re stuck in, or make your life better in any way, shape, or form there is.

Those things are a total waste of time, life, or potential, when it comes to someone highly intelligent or creative like you. They are beneath you. You are too smart to occupy yourself with such things.

And that’s why you’re losing in life.

But whenever you try to reach out for help, they dismiss your complaints and concerns as covert narcissism.

You are too grandiose to be bothered with. You are delusional. You think too highly of yourself. Who do you think you are? If you were smart enough, you would’ve figured it all out by now on your own, and succeeded easily like the rest of us.

They will never understand, because they are not intelligent enough. And that’s why that was never a problem for them.

But there is a way.

The problem lies within the fact that you are intelligent, and that’s why you are important, and that’s why you don’t have time for any of those things necessary to fix your life. They are beneath you. They are not worthy of your time. You should not waste your time, potential, or life doing any of those things.

But what if the only way to get yourself to be capable of doing those things wasn’t through devaluing yourself, your life, or your potential, but to devalue your time itself only, so that it becomes possible for you to do those things easily without any resistance.

If your time is not important. If your time does not matter. If it was okay for you to waste your time. Will you then have any resistance or reluctance towards doing any of those things necessary to save or fix your life?

What if I told you, that the only way to have a better future, is to devalue the present moment, until you get there?

If you do not devalue your present moment, and sacrifice years of your life, thinking that those years are totally unimportant, and are thus okay to be wasted, in order to fix the rest of your life, and get to a better future, your future itself will become the sacrifice. The rest of your life itself will become the sacrifice, for you will forever remain stuck and trapped in those unlivable circumstances, for all time.

Devalue the present moment, in order to have a life worthy of living. A life that someone with your intelligence, creativity, intellect, abilities, and potential, truly deserves.

All you need to do is listen to the impulse of the inner child.

All you need to do is follow the creative impulse, no matter what.

With disregard to the future. With disregard to your energy. With disregard to how tired you are at the moment. With disregard to how much fatigued or exhausted you are at the moment. With disregard to how much motivation, enthusiasm, excitement, interest, or desire you have at the moment.

It is about not even thinking about whether or not you should follow the creative impulse or the impulse of the inner child. If you hesitate, pause, doubt it, or question it, it’s over and it will be gone in no time. It will dissolve immediately, because you did not submit and succumb to it like it owns you, and you did not clearly demonstrate unchecked and unlimited total willingness to follow the creative impulse or the creative impulse of the inner child, wherever it leads you, with disregard to your circumstances, situation, or environment, even if it ruins your life. Even if it leads to the ultimate intractable destruction of everything you call you and your self and your life.

It is not about the creative impulse being right or good for you.

It’s about following the creative impulse like you are powerless and submissive, like you have no will, desire, dreams, or mind of your own.

It’s about showing the creative impulse that you have no control over your urges, impulses, desires, mind, or life.

And then your creativity will start to function normally.

And ironically enough, you will start to gain back control over your mind and life, like never before.

The problem is that most of those who speak on the subject think of the frontal lobes or our inhibitory centers as car brakes. The stuff that controls us and stops us from doing something.

Wrong.

They are the stuff that makes us do something, rather than the other.

They are the car accelerator, and the steering wheel. They are not the brakes.

What I’m trying to tell you here and make you understand is that only through loss of inhibition or total disinhibition, will you achieve true control over your mind, body, and self.

You cannot control or stop yourself. You can only tell it to do something in particular, rather than anything else at the moment.

You can only focus on doing something.

You cannot do absolutely nothing, even when you’re asleep.

You can only give your mind or yourself something rewarding and worthwhile enough to focus on or do at any given moment.

You can only do. You cannot not do anything at all. You cannot stop yourself. You have no brakes. You have no inhibition. You cannot do absolutely nothing. It’s impossible.

You are creative. And that’s what’s right with you.

You are a creative individual. Start acting like one.

I understand that you are taking a day or two off. You still need to at least make a rough plan for what you intend to do during that time. 

Or else, you’ll just be roaming around, jumping from one random choice to the other only trying to avoid the whole thing becoming a total waste of time. 

What exactly do you wanna do during that time off to enjoy your day? 

Gather that somewhere, even if you do not intend to follow that list, because it can always act as a safety net when you don’t know what to do next.

If you have nothing to put on that list of suggested activities for that day, then you have a problem. Fix that first.

Make sure you always have a lot of ideas for things you can do whenever you take some time off. 

It’ll make a huge difference, even though you think that the time you take off is time you’re supposed to intentionally not want to make a difference during it.

Do the thing, with disregard to how much energy you have, or how much energy you feel you have, no matter what, or else you will never extract yourself out of rock-bottom.

Sometimes it is easier and less energy demanding to go for the thing right away, and to just do the thing that you want to do, than it is to aim for it, and keep maintaining yourself being in that state of aiming for and being absolutely ready for and prepared for doing the thing with maximum motivation. That state of readiness, is sometimes harder than the actual engagement in doing the thing itself. As in, it’s hard to stay ready and prepared for doing the thing at peak state of readiness and at peak performance, enthusiasm, and motivation, than to actually get started already and begin doing the thing.

You are failing in life because of this. It is such a small reason for failure, but it is still responsible for the overwhelming majority of your failure, at least when it comes to your productivity and making progress, with disregard to the negative influence of outside or external factors that might sometimes be totally responsible for your failure at whatever it is that you want to succeed in doing in life.

You wait, until you’re ready.

You wait, until you reach the peak state of readiness, preparedness, motivation, energy, enthusiasm, and excitement about doing the thing.

This is beyond waiting to feel like it, which is contingent upon your mood and feelings at the moment, with disregard to your energy or motivation.

You wait until you feel you have the energy to do the thing.

You wait, until you no longer feel tired.

You wait, until you no longer feel like you need to rest, or sleep anymore.

You wait, until there’s no sense of fatigue, or exhaustion, whatsoever, left in you.

You wait, for the right moment.

You wait, until you feel you can do the thing.

You wait until you feel you have the ability to do the thing totally successfully and perfectly.

You wait, until everything is perfect. Not just the external environment, but also your internal state, environment, and well-being.

And that’s why you say no, I’m not going to do it now. I’m going to do it later.

And that’s why your procrastination never ends, and you never seem to be making satisfactory progress, ever.

Because, on paper, you look like you were performing at peak capacity. After all, you only said no, when you couldn’t do the thing. You had no energy. It’s not your fault. You really couldn’t do it. And so, you conclude that this is your maximum capacity, and you shouldn’t and you couldn’t push yourself beyond that, ever. Which means, you’ll always be an underperformer, and not good enough. Not making enough progress, ever. Through no fault of your own.

Or, so you believe.

Because you simply don’t know, that you should just do the thing, even if you have no energy for it, whatsoever.