It will always feel like a total waste of time, until you manage to escape, save yourself, and fix your life for good.

It might seem that no matter what you do today, the day will still be totally wasted.

So you think trying to do anything today won’t matter, because nothing you can do today will make it not be totally wasted.

You didn’t get anything done at all, or you weren’t able to move the needle forward at all, and that time will definitely be wasted against your will no matter what you do or how hard you try, because of the nature of your situation, your circumstances, your unlivable environment, or because you’re stuck somehow with currently no way out.

And that might be true. It might not be just a feeling. As long as you are stuck in a toxic environment or situation, or trapped under unlivable circumstances, you will always feel like your life is being wasted in front of your very own eyes, and there’s nothing that you can do about it or to make it stop.

But this is how you get out of such situations. You keep going even when it doesn’t look like you’re making a difference or you’ll ever be able to get out someday, until you do. 

Again, it will never feel like you’re making progress towards saving yourself and setting yourself free, until you are out of such toxic, abusive, unfair, or unlivable circumstances, situation, or environment, no matter what. You cannot feel rewarded when you’re in survival mode all the time.

You cannot feel like you did something amazing today when you know you are still trapped where there are people or things that can ruin your happiness in an instant. How can you enjoy your success and achievement when your very own existence is under threat all the time?

Nevertheless, you have to keep going, no matter what, because the worst that could happen is having achieved nothing all your life until you managed to escape. Until you make it to safety.

You always say that it is not worth it anymore to try to save yourself, because a huge portion of your life has already been wasted, it seems like going through all this struggle to save the rest of it not worth it anymore.

And I’m not saying you’re wrong about this.

Make sure that does not happen.

Make sure you keep accomplishing groundbreaking stuff all the time, even before you escape.

And above all, make sure you save yourself, before it’s too late to be worth saving.