Why do you feel pathetic all the time when you’re starting out as a new YouTuber or when you’re at the early stages of building your personal brand?

When you look at your age and realize that almost all people by your age have accomplished something that got them at a comfortable place or stage of their careers where they are not under scrutiny or when their competence isn’t still questioned, or whether or not they got what it takes is yet to be determined, you feel you’re lesser than what you’re supposed to be. It’s okay if you’re still starting out if you’re still 22 years old or something. But over thirty. That puts a ton of pressure upon you, to the extent that it makes you consider something like quitting or start contemplating why you don’t have what it takes to succeed in building and retaining a huge following. Patience is key, but is patience really recommended in your case? Or should you try to bypass this conventional wisdom of being patient by going a little faster as in you‘re in emergency mode right now? Could you rely on your inner fire that keeps you going long enough or should you be not sure whether this kind of fire is going to last long enough until you get there? You’re old. Not elderly in a sense that you should give up, retire, and chill. But too old to take too long to have it figured out. You can’t take a decade until you accomplish what others took a decade to accomplish when they started in their early twenties. At least this is how your mind treats this whole situation of yours right now. I’m not saying that this is the logical course of action that you should take at the moment. All I’m trying to tell you here is that this is why you feel you’re pathetic, like you’re lying to yourself. Why you feel afraid almost to the point of panic to put yourself out there and stuff. Notice that in your thirties your inhibition is not like it was back in your twenties. These new inhibitory capabilities need to prove their existence to you by exercising themselves on anything uncertain you delve into. When you were still like 22, this was considered to be fun because of the thrill of the chase and uncertainty. In your thirties and beyond this feels like you’re shutting down the entire faculties of reason and thinking logically within you in order to do what you love, and hence the excessive guilt that you have no explanation for right now. These new logical bosses up there are not gonna settle for some pep talk you give them on not giving up and perseverance until you get there. These guys need to confront or come across hard evidence of you not fooling with them around, not just having fun and enjoying the moment or the journey to their own detriment, in order for them to grant you permission to move forward. This means that the entirety of what would work on kids in their early twenties won’t necessarily work in your case, if you’re thirty plus years old. You have to approach this from a sense of superiority. Like you’re not gonna take the normal long path with all the slow learning curve that a newbie kid would take to reach the same results. You gotta go out there, and show them kids who’s boss. In my books I called that a special situation, not a bad situation, because here you’re not going to follow the normal rules that get you going in your normal days. This is special as in the way you approach stuff will be exceptional. The laws that you’ll follow (not talking about laws imposed by the government here at all). How you will talk to yourself. How you will motivate yourself. Even if I really have no solution for you here, at least I want you to know that your sense of inferiority or you feeling pathetic right now is not because of your incompetence. It’s because of your age. Don’t let that deter you from the life that you truly want. I’m not saying that it is too late for someone like you. I’m just telling you that your mind might be telling you it’s too late because you’re too old for not having a stable predictable life right now. All I want you to do here is to not listen to your mind right now. Which is something that contradicts with what I almost always advise you to do. I always tell you to listen to what your deep places are trying to make you aware of. Listening to your mind and following it might work always in your favor in case of normal situations, but not always in case of special situations.