Ironically enough, it’s because you’re trying too hard.

You can’t be all-knowing and all-powerful simultaneously. It’s mutually exclusive. If you know what will it be, you can’t make it otherwise, or else it could be anything, and might not necessarily end up being the thing you thought it would be. You can’t know exactly how something will turn out, unless it cannot turn out any other way. And if it cannot turn out any other way, then you couldn’t have made it turn out any other way, which means you have to make it turn out this certain way or else it will not have become what you thought or knew it would become or look like in the future. You can’t have options, if you’re planning out on knowing the answer, every single time. In order to have a certain outcome and not any other, you will have to at least not use your ability to change the outcome whenever you want to, for any reason. You can get any outcome you want, but if you want to get a certain outcome, you will have to not try to get any other outcome. If you know what you want, you will have to stop trying to get anything else until you get exactly what you want. If you know the future, the future can’t be anything else that you don’t already know.

This becomes a problem when you are trying to explore something new for the very first time. If you know everything there is that could be known about something, then there really isn’t anything new for you to know about it that you still need to learn or explore. But what if you’re trying to explore something totally new to you? What if there is still much to learn about something? Then in this case, you need to not approach it from an all-knowing perspective. You need to allow your full potential to be able to move around unchecked, uninhibited, and unrestrained. You have to have the freedom to move around all you want. You have to not be so under control. You have to be totally unrepressed. You have to be totally and absolutely free. You can’t do so if you’re exercising inhibition and total control over your mind and over every move you make and every step you take. You will not be able to notice or detect what’s new that you don’t already know about what you’re trying to experience for the very first time, or what you’re still trying to explore, or learn about. Whatever that which you don’t already know, you will miss. Whatever that which you are totally unaware of its existence, you will remain totally oblivious to its existence. Whatever that which you don’t already know, you won’t be able to notice, detect, understand, comprehend, realize, feel, or learn. Whatever that which you don’t already know, you will not know, and you will never taste, or realize it exists in the first place. Whatever that which you don’t already know, you will not be able to experience it at all in the first place, even if you really wanted to. You can’t remain in control, if you’re trying to explore something new.

If you haven’t ever experienced genuine pleasure or happiness in your whole life, when you were younger, or at least when you were still under thirty, you might be blocked from tasting it even for once as a grown-up, because you haven’t tasted it or experienced it once before, or enough, previously in your life, or in the past, so you don’t know what it is like, how it feels like, or what it looks like. You don’t know what to expect. You don’t know what it is that you’re trying to feel, experience, or taste in the first place. It is not in the realm of what you know.

But when you were young, you didn’t have that kind of inhibition and control that you have over your mind now, because you were relatively underdeveloped. So it was way easier for you to realize what’s new and feel it exactly as it is. Without stopping yourself from feeling it or experiencing it like you do now as a grown-up, mostly not on purpose, just because when your inhibitory centers are online, and when you’re in total control over yourself, your mind, your thoughts, and feelings, and your behavior, you will only allow what you know exists to exist. You will only allow what you can describe as safe and familiar to take place. Only what is known to you will be allowed to exist, and the rest will be all forbidden. If it isn’t already known to you, it will not be allowed to happen, exist, or take place in the first place, and thus, you will never be able to experience, feel, or taste it fully, or exactly as it is, or as it is supposed to be or feel like.

In the past, you didn’t have to stop being in control in order to experience or feel pleasure, because you hardly had any control over yourself in the first place. You have to be in control of the nature of your experience if you want to always know what will happen next. In order to experience something that you haven’t experienced before, which means you don’t know enough or anything about it, you have to risk not totally knowing what will happen in the future, or at least in the next few moments.

When trying to experience something for the very first time, or at a level that is deeper than normal or your usual, you have to be okay with not knowing the future. That is, you have to not go about it with full control or while fully controlling yourself and the nature of your experience. You have to not go about it in a highly controlling manner with lots of inhibition, expectation, and anticipation. You literally have to decrease the inhibition, in order to feel everything. In a safe environment of course.

If you can know exactly what will happen, this means that you cannot do or feel anything else. Because what will happen will then be just one knowable thing that is definite and cannot be anything else. You have to be in control if you want to know what will happen next. In order for you to become omnipotent, you have to stop being omniscient. In order for you to experience pleasure or happiness to the fullest, you have to risk not knowing the future. You have to no longer be in control.

You have to be not so all-knowing while trying or attempting to do so. You have to no longer be all-knowing, if you want to be all-powerful.